I am very fascinated in Celtic designs, one of these is the Celtic dog. Had it done last Dec 19, I am very happy of the result.
"The dog animal symbol also maintains a pure root meaning throughout time and culture. That meaning is loyalty, of course. Man (and woman's) best friend, the dog symbolizes the strong bond of companionship felt between human and animal.
The dog was considered to be good luck in the village, and as such, the symbol of the dog was commonly found in Celtic décor, clothing, etc. There are reports that the dog symbol is a harbinger of good health. More likely, the dog's companionship warded away the illnesses loneliness and rejection cause." (article from http://www.whats-your-sign.com/Celtic-animals.html)
The Artist did an excellent art work... Wonderful.
Sin City Tattoos. <----- check out their blog-crib.
It was a fulfilling moment seeing the end result of this art work. It's just like a different me a new me. I always wanted to have a tattoo but can't find someone to be trusted to do the job. Since I'm a tattoo virgin I'm a little anxious when the artist is preparing his equipment. I also read the waiver 5 times before I signed it. I also had gazillion questions during the briefing. What are the precautions when you have a tattoo, what are the things to be done after the ritual, what if, when will, blah blah blah. Despite of tons tons of questions the artists answered it full-heartedly, with out any signs of annoyance. They also told me what will the tattoo look like after 10 to 20 years. They are very professional and yet very friendly, They're like talking to a kid who visited a dentist for the first time.
The ritual lasted for 2 hours, an hour for the actual tattooing and an hour for the briefing and reading the waiver. It wasn't painful than I anticipated. I gathered all of the story that my friends told me when they had their first tattoo, so I was expecting that it will be excruciating, and I was disappointed because that doesn't hurt that much. It was like an ignite-r of a lighter repeatedly tickling your skin.
"Pare sana nagpa-henna ka nalang" (you should've tried henna tattoo instead)one of the client suggested, senselessly. I gave him a grimace "duh! hennas are for babies" I silently uttered while giving him a rolling eyes. Hihihihi! Got my tattoo brotha. hehehehe Joke. I always find it sexy to have a tattoo, well of course if it's beautifully done, like Angelina Jolie's tattoos.
I don't blame other people who loathed the one's who has tattoos. It's just a matter of choices and you choose not to have one, and us, we simply have an eye for art. Joke! Kidding aside, Its' just that we have different perspectives towards things like this one, and when we learn to respect each other regardless of the belief, race, sexuality and religion. We will all live a peaceful and happy life.
Have a happy holiday and Prosperous New Year!
see yah.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Holiday gift for my self...
karambola ng isip ko celtic, holiday gift, tattoos
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Safe sex
Habang naglalakad ako sa lobby ng PUP Main campus,napatingin ako sa photo exhibit na hindi ko alam kung para saan. Parang may pwersang nagtulak sakin na tignan ang bawat larawan na naka exhibit. Nasa kalagitnaan na ako ng na-realize ko na ang mga taong may sakit sa larawan ay ang mga HIV/AIDS victims. Nakita ko hindi lamang ang paghihirap nila dulot ng karamdaman pati na rin ang paghihirap nila na makihalubilo sa kapwa at kung pano nila gugugulin ang nalalabi nilang oras at ang pakikipag laban nila na mamuhay ng normal. Nakakabilib, nakita ko sa larawan ang pagsusumikap nilang mabuhay para sa mga mahal nila sa buhay, makikita rin sa kanilang mga mata na tangap na nila ang kanilang kalagayan kahit na hindi kaila sa kanila na wala ng lunas ang sakit na ito.
Naantig ako sa babaeng inaalagan ang kanyang asawa sa abot ng kanyang makakaya, mahal pa rin niya ito sa kabila ng kalagayan nito, ni hindi na makakilos at payat na payat. Nakita ko rin ang isang batang wala pang kam'wang m'wang na may sakit ding HIV/AIDS. Sa kabila nito bakas parin sa mukha niya ang kasiyahan at ang pagsisikap niyang makapagaral. Ang pinaka nantig ako ay sa mag-asawang parehas may HIV/AIDS. Mahal na mahal nila ang isat't isa, lalo na yung lalaki, makikita ang pagiging mabuti niyang asawa at ama sa isa nilang anak na mapalad na hindi nakuha ang sakit. Kahit na alam niyang nahawa siya sa aasawa niyang HIV positive. Makikita dito ang tunay at wagas niyang pag ibig sa kabiyak sa kabila ng pagkakaroon din niya ng HIV/AIDS dahil sa kanya.
Nang matpos kong makita lahat ng mga larawan; naantig, natakot, at nainspire ako. Sa kabila ng kanilang karamdaman, nagsusumikap pa rin silang mabuhay sa tulong ng mga taong nagmamalasakit sa mga kagaya nilang biktima ng sakit na ito. Nakakatuwang isipin na may mga taong naiintindihan ang kanilang karamdaman at tinutulungan sila sa abot ng kanilang makakaya. Kahit ang iba dito ay hindi nila ka-ano-ano. Mahirap ang magkaroon ng ganitong karamdaman, mahirap isiping may sakit ka na hindi na malulunasan, para kang isang kandilang unti-unting inuupos ng karamdaman, unti unti kang manghihina at babagsak ang iyong katawan na mistulang punong kahoy na untiu-nting nalalanta at natutuyot, mahirap din ang pakiramdam na dahil sa kakulangan ng inpormasyon pinandidirihan sila ng ibang tao. Msakit itakwil ng kapwa mo dahil sa sakit na ito, subalit sa kabila ng mga ito, pilit pa rin nilang itinataguyod ang kanilang buhay, ang iba namay ibinabahagi sa ibang tao ang mga karanasang ito. Iminumulat ang kaalaman ng mga tao tungkol sa sakit na ito, ipinapaliwanag nila kung saan at papaano nakukuha ang ganitong sakit. Nakakatakot para sakin dahil isa sa dahilan ng pagkalat nito ay ang pakikipag talik na walaang proteksyon. Hindi ka pala magigi sigurado sa kahit na kaninong tao at kahit sa sarili mo, ito ang isa sa nagturo sa akin na kung gaano kahalaga ang "safe sex"
see yah
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ang artikulong ito ay isinulat ko noong February 19 2005. my entry for world AIDS DAY (pahabol)
karambola ng isip ko aids, safe sex, world aids day
Friday, November 28, 2008
For you. (the original entry)
"I know I wounded you so deeply and the trauma that it caused you will never be disremembered, and I promise you, this will be the last.."
I am being selfish, and I know I shouldn't be.
I feel like i'm being taken for granted, I know you have many priorities and I'm not even at the least. We've talked about this many times but then nothing happened. I'm still not in your list of priorities. Yes! I am demanding it! but you didn't heed, however I understand you, I wounded you so deeply, and the trauma that it caused you, holds you back from giving me what I demand.
Remember when I first said "i love you"? You replied "Thank you!". Still, I hold on to that, I understand how you feel that time, and I know that it is may fault. I wounded you so deeply, and the trauma that it caused you, holds back those three special words to be uttered.
I asked you of our status and you told me that you are not ready for a commitment. You kept me hanging for a month, but then I tried to hold on, because I understand you, I wounded you so deeply, and the trauma that it caused you, holds you back from trusting me.
There are times that I needed someone to talk to, but you were no where to be found. You didn't even bother to ask how am I doing or how is it going. I felt alone but I understand you, I wounded you so deeply, and the trauma that it caused you, holds you back from caring for me.
I understand you! All of these things are my fault and I am the one that should be blamed. You were always caring and thoughtful but I never appreciated it. I was so idealistic to look for something that you don't have. I was blinded by my touchstone and failed to see the beauty that you possess, kindness that you display. You tried to understand me but in return I treated you with antipathy. I was so stupid to doubt the love that you are giving, thinking that it was nothing but a game.
Now the ghost that I created in the past was haunting me, causes me to lose control of my sanity. This is where the paranoia coming from. Scared of my own footprints, scared that the things I've done will be thrown back to me. It was all my fault, I failed to appreciate you.
I am deeply in love with you Siopao. Insanely in love but I am not happy anymore...
I tried to understand you but my understanding has ended right this very moment. I can not continue what ever we have, because I can not bear the pain that I'm giving you, I know the wound that you have will leave a mark forever, and I don't want the trauma that it caused you turn into fear of loving again. The guilt is eating me, it slowly embracing my soul, and I'm starting to suffocate. I am now being strangled to death and as I desperately grasp for air, the things that I've done flashed back in to my mind. Even I, can't bear it. The pain that I've caused you doubled when it echoed back to me.
I'm like a prisoner trying to un-strangle the manacle of guilt in my soul, and the chain of pain in my heart; but as I scuffle to free my self, both are tightening up and crushing them into pieces. Like a prisoner, there's only one thing in my mind...
I want to be free...
see yah.
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This entry was edited before I posted it last time. We tried to patch things up but it didn't work, so I decided to post the original entry.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
For you.
"I know I wounded you so deeply and the trauma that it caused you will never be disremembered. I will never hurt you again."
I am being selfish, and I know I shouldn't be.
I feel like i'm being taken for granted, I know you have many priorities and I'm not even at the least. We've talked about this many times but then nothing happened. I'm still not in your list of priorities. Yes! I am demanding it! but you didn't heed, however I understand you, I wounded you so deeply, and the trauma that it caused you, holds you back from giving me what I demand.
Remember when I first said "i love you"? You replied "Thank you!". Still, I hold on to that, I understand how you feel that time, and I know that it is may fault. I wounded you so deeply, and the trauma that it caused you, holds back those three special words to be uttered.
I asked you of our status and you told me that you are not ready for a commitment. You kept me hanging for a month, but then I tried to hold on, because I understand you, I wounded you so deeply, and the trauma that it caused you, holds you back from trusting me.
There are times that I needed someone to talk to, but you were no where to be found. You didn't even bother to ask how am I doing or how is it going. I felt alone but I understand you, I wounded you so deeply, and the trauma that it caused you, holds you back from caring for me.
I understand you! All of these things are my fault and I am the one that should be blamed.
You were always caring and thoughtful but I never appreciated it. I was so idealistic to look for something that you don't have. I was blinded by my touchstone and failed to see the beauty that you possess, kindness that you display. You tried to understand me but in return I treated you with antipathy. I was so stupid to doubt the love that you are giving, thinking that it was nothing but a game.
Now the ghost that I created in the past was now haunting me, causes me to lose control of my sanity. This is where the paranoia coming from. Scared of my own footprints, scared that the things I've done will be thrown back to me. It was all my fault, I failed to appreciate you.
I am deeply in love with you Siopao. Insanely in love...
...but I love my self more...
see yah.
karambola ng isip ko feelings, love, romace
Panulat ni Dudong at 10:08 PM 10 komento
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
What is the name of your angel?
"When I was a child I believed in angels.I asked his name, his name was Gabriel."
How'd I know it? you'll just feel it, you already know it long before you make your first step. Before you go to sleep ask your angel his name and you'll feel it the next morning. Don't use logic use your heart. Your heart knows a lot of things, and it always talks to you. You're listening to it when you were a child but as soon as you learn to think of your own and use logic you stopped listening, but then your heart still shouts and you never heed. Until now, it talks to you but you never listen...because you can never put a water in a cup when it's already full.
"I met someone by the name of Gabriel and I strongly feel that he is in deed my angel."
However, there is a conflict, someone has already claimed that he is my angel, and my heart and mind was now in asymmetry. I stopped listening to my heart long ago, so now even if it shrieks I can not understand. Somehow I lost connection to my self. How can 2 tigers stay in one mountain?
"Kiss of an angel"
He gave me a spellbind kiss, it made me think of him misses him and seems like I know him even before I learn to talk. It was magical. The universe conspires to help me meet my angel. The rain stopped to make my way to him the time froze when I met him. All I can see is him and all I can hear is his voice. The wind sent me his scent before I even met him. Enchanted it is...
"I don't know what happened next...because I woke up..."
See yah...
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Lucky me.
I always wanted to buy a new phone....yan nadinig ang dasal ko.... nakabili ko ng phone? hindi pa...pero nawala ung phone ko, kaya ngaun I have a reason to buy a new one. Hahahahaha... Naiwan ko ata sa taxi,at para sa nakapulot ng CP ko, palitan mu na lang ng housing kasu medyo mahal palitan yan ng housing tas eto ung security code just type "john" tas iwawala ko din ung charger para sana ikaw ang makakuha at pati na rin ung karton and manual and ear phones. Wag mu na lang sana pakialaman ung sim. thanks. Alam mu pang apat na cp ko palang yan sa buong buhay ko. kasi hindi talaga ko nag papalit ng CP kung hindi kailangan. hehehehe.
karambola ng isip ko Lucky phone
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Come to think of it...
Habang naglalakad ako pauwi galing opis naisipan kong mag taho, sarado pa namn MRT kasi masyado pang maaga. Nkaugalian ko ng uminun ng taho every morning para din dag dag protein masyado kasi kong payatot....eheheheh.
well anyway tama na ang daldal eto ang nangyari...hinahanap ko si manung taho sa baba ng mrt buendia station. aba wala pa!...nang biglang may dumaan ng taxi at huminto sa harap ko, ay hindi ako mag tataxi mag MMrt ako sabi ko sa isip ko. Pag baba ng sakay ng taxi bumaba din ung driver at pag bukas ng compartment...aba!!! akalain mu ung taho ang laman...Sosyal na mamang Taho naka taxi!!! Samantala ako nanghihinayang sa pantaxi ko pauwe kasi ang laki ng difference ng 12 pesos sa MRT sa 100pesos na pantataxi ko.
Ayun na nga bumuli na ko ng taho, pero maaga pa rin keya nakipag kwentuhan parin ako kay manong.
ako: Manong anung oras mag bubukas ung MRT (wala lang just to start a conversation)
mamang taho: ay mga 5:30 pa yan...
ako: ahhhh ok...eh manung lage kayung nag tataxi?
mtaho:ay oo araw araw pag umaga...
ako:(sa isip: tuchang mama taho ito mas sosyal!)
- bago pa man din ako makapag tanung uli... bigla syang nag salita ulit-
m taho: mas ok na yun...mga tarantado kasi ang mga bus driver nahulog na ko sa bus dati keya un mas napamahal na pa ako...
ahhhhh nahulog pala xa at nagkaroon ng malaking troma dahil natapon daw ang taho nya. umandar kasi ung bus ng hindi pa xa nakakababa kaya ayun. sumambulat ang minit at mamasamasang taho ni manung sa sahig.
sa pag kukwentuhan namin may natutunan din ako. Mas malakas ang ulan mas marameng nagtataho, pero pag ambon lang kaunti ang nagtataho. eto ang kanyang sagot. pag umaambon kasi mabilis daw maglakad ang tao...keya hindi na nila napapansin ung mga nagbebenta. nag mamadali kasi baka lumakas ang ulan. at pag umuulan naman, naiistranded sila sa silong ng flyover sa buendia, keya wala silang magawa kundi mag palipas ng ulan at mag food trip, ang pinag didiskitahan nila dahil malamig ay ang mainit na taho. (aba it makes sense diba?)
ibang klase pala si manong he conducted social experiment( taray diba?) at isa ko sa subject nya dahil madalas akong dumaan sa pwesto nya. idagdag sa kasosyalan ni manong ang kinikita nya araw araw ay 1000 pesos! oo tama kayu ng nabasa. 1k a day ang rate ni manong, kasu performance based. (bigla tuloy ako nahiya...mas malaki kumita si manong) ...sosyal talaga...
see yah!
karambola ng isip ko simle life
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
A night in a pressure cooker.
This place is just like a huge pressure cooker, i can feel the boiling water penetrates my skin and slowly cooking me, but instead of me being tender after long hours in this big pressure cooker, I am beginning to be dense as a rock. It makes my whole body numb and I can't feel anything. Is this the end of me? am I nothing but a failure? Do I deserve this?
OF COURSE NOT! There's no way that I'm going to end up like this. I can feel the adrenalin rush! It slowly spreads to my whole system. Fighting the stupefying effect of this pressure cooker. Makes me think fast and effectively. Fighting not to be emotionally deteriorated.
I am now making my way out of this exhausting situation, composing my self again, and picking up the scattred pieces of me from the floor. Freeing my self from this fucking Pressure Cooker.
I'm feeling better now. I can do this! just focus. Think of happy thoughts and my goal. Nothing can stop me in my race to success not even a pressure cooker or even you, dumb ass, no matter how you demotivate me or try to outrage me, YOU CAN'T STOP ME!
see yah
Monday, September 1, 2008
Dream date
"Every body has their dream date, It should be in a perfect place, should be with the right person, the perfect time, etc. but what would your dream date be?"
Well what exactly in my mind? I have dated a few but none of them fulfilled my dream date. Most of the dates I had was in the mall doing the same old boring stuffs, movies, coffee shops, dining and after that what comes next? hmmmmmm, lets say that I had learned my lessons "don't do sex on your first date". If you wanted the dating stage to step up to the next level, don't include it in your "things to do list", because it will just extinguish the excitement, and the interest of seeing the person again. Well unless, if your main objective is to be nailed or to nail someone.
My dream date would be in a place where you could have an intellectual masturbation, where in you would have a chance to know the person deeper,(wow hopeless romantic) at the same time an enjoyable place, and for me, the Zoo would be perfect( hehehehe) . I never been there before, so the date would be fun and memorable. A theme park would be perfect as well or in the ocean park, but of course if it's okay with my date.
If you had dated me and I asked you to watch a movie or for a coffee that means I just wanted a company...he he he, I'm sorry....
How about you what would your dream date be?
see yah
Monday, August 18, 2008
Neithan got Talent!
Hey guys this is my friend and my mentor, he got wonderful voice just sharing it. Have time to listen to it. He's great!
Told you...He's GREAT. It made me ask my self When will I fall in love?
Friday, August 15, 2008
I love you goodbye...
This is not so true. If you really love the person why would you leave him? ---- This was my thinking before.
Loving a person is not enough to stay in the relatioship. There are things to be considered, and those things are more important than staying with the person you love. Sad but this is true. Here are some of the obvious reasons.
*If the person you love is married. You don't want to be a home wrecker, do you?
*If the person you love doesn't love you. Hey don't be stupid, isn't obvious? Duh!
*If the person you love is your best friend's bf/gf. Don't be selfish, friendship is more important.
*If you feel that it will not work no matter what you do. You will know when to stop, you'll feel
it.
*If the person you love is taken, though he/she promised you that he/she loves you and that makes your relationship complicated. look who's talking. hehehehe
...still more to come, for now you can give your suggestions. When to say I LOVE YOU GOODBYE?
karambola ng isip ko drama, love story, senti
Monday, August 11, 2008
5 Signs He's Into You
5 Signs He's Into You
By Chelsea Kaplan
Having trouble figuring out your guy's level of interest in you? Sometimes, the proof is in his body language. To understand what your honey's movement, eye contact and even posture reveal about his true feelings for you, check out these hints from Greg Hartley, former Army Special Forces interrogator and author of I Can Read You Like a Book: How to Spot the Messages and Emotions People Are Really Sending With Their Body Language.
Five signs your date is into you…

Friday, August 8, 2008
Talent Search
Sino ba namn ang hindi nangarap na lumabas ang mukha nila sa TV? halos lahat ata ng tao pinangarap na maging artista. Lahat kakaririn para lang makapasuk sa magulong mundo ng showbiz (sikreto ko tong malupet, minsan sa buhay ko pinangarap ko din na lumabas mukha ko sa TV, hindi ko na nga lang tinuloy mangarap. Bkit? Basahin mu ung entry ko na Sense of humor na may sense). Sinu nga ba namn ang hindi mabubulag sa laki ng kita sa pag aartisa, sabi nga ng kabit bahay ko dyan, pera pera lang yan, AT hindi lang yaun. da Fame, da glory na nakakabit sa pangalan mu pag sumikat ka. Jakpot nga naman, magiging VIP ka na sa mga paborito mung fast food, di ka na nila papipilahin. Pag may gusto kang bilhin sa CD-R King aasikasuhin ka ng mga sales lady dun at hindi ka nila susungitan (ewan ko requirement ata na masama ugali ang tinatangap dun eh. Lalu na sa SM pala pala sa Cavite)at lalu na sa MRT hindi ka na din pagbabayarin, hindi mu na kailangan pumila ng mahaba, papapasukin ka nila sa Employee entrance.(oo hindi masama mag MRT pag artista ka na),hindi ka na bibili ng damit (bibigyan ka na lng) mas maganda pa dun eh hindi ka na huhuluhin ng MMDA pag hindi mu sinunod ang traffic rules sa Edsa.
Ang pinaka madaling paraan upang maging artista ay ang pagsali sa mga nagkalat na talent search ngaun, pero malaki na ang pagkakaiba ng mga talent search nuon at ngaun. Nuon ang mga nagwawagi sa talent search ay mga tunay na may talento gaya sa "Tawag ng Tanghalan" ang mga nagwagi sa talent search na ito ay tunay namng may K. Gaya ni Dulce, ang kumanta ng "Ako ang Nasawi, Ako ang Nagwagi", ang sikat na si Nora Aunor, na iisa ang tono sa pagdedeliber ng linya(pansinin nyo kahit galit, masaya o umiiyak parehas ang tono ng linya) at marame pang iba, hindi ko na nga lang naabutan kasi. kaya sila lang ang alam ko. hehehehe!
Ngaung panahong to mas marami ang talent search na nagsulputan, kaya nag karoon na din ng pag asa ang marami sa Pilipinong nag aambisyong yumaman. Tanungin mu ang mga kabataan ngaun (2 to 10 years old) pag tinanung mu kung anu ang gusto nila maging paklaki, ang isasagot ng karamihan ay maging katulad ni Idol oh in short maging artista. Di tulad dati na ang isasagot nila eh maging doktor, abugado, piloto...
Ang mga talent search ngaun ay nag poproduce ng mga talents na walang talent. Ang gulo noh....dahil idadaan ito sa text votes, kung sino ang gusto ng mga tao o kung sino ang mas maraming kamag-anak, kaibigan at kakilala un ang mananalo.(Toink! un lang) Pero it makes sense kasi mas patok sa tao mas malaking tsansang sumikat. Pero ang kalalabasan nito ang binoto ng tao ay magiging Contemporary artist (sa tagalog, ngaun lang sikat, bukas hindi na) hindi gaya ng mga nanalo nuon hangang ngaun Sikat parin, dahil sa huli masasabi nilang nanalo ako sa Talent Search dahil may talento ako.
Wala lang naisip ko lang....
see yah
karambola ng isip ko artista, cd-r king, pangarap ng mga bata, talent, talent search, tawag ng tanghalan, text vote